MCMXCII .est

Dear God,

You know it, I know it, I am talking about it, but not being about it… I need to show up to class. This whole week, has just been a let down, I don’t know if it’s the weather, just my mood, or just part of the whole process of building yourself up again, but like what a year and half ago? I was in class, I was there always on time, calling in to work? That was a sin to me, I mean I had to be really sick or something?

I am about being successful, that was what I was breed for.

But look at me a year and half later, I am working, There is almost not a job or goal I can reach, but yet I choose to limit myself, not because of anything, but myself. And for me to sit here and just mozzy along, and then feel all bad about it is plain childish. This wasn’t who I was a year ago, who I am designed to be.

I don’t have too much time, life is credit card, and when time is up, ill be judged for how I spent it, and what I did with it. Who cares what some one says, the accusations, you just have to know the truth, and if your wrong admit it? Right.

I can say thats it and feel all motivated after this Tumblr post, but in reality, it all changes Monday… I can look back at this and say I meant what I said here, I am a man of my word…. or look back a week after Monday and say to myself, ” What a joke, I hope no one read this”.

Yeah, I can show up to class barely ace the exam after not showing up for a whole semester, be the ferris buhller the smart ass of the class, the good will hunting… or actually stop being a idiot and do things when there due.

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And at that moment we created something bueatiful.

If I could run, if I could hide, if I could build the world anew… if I could just say fuck you, and all the things you took from me.

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In the end they’ll judge me anyway, so whatever.

In the end they’ll judge me anyway, so whatever.

Sometimes you will not know the road

Sometimes you will never know to go North, South, East or West

Sometimes you will stumble and fall, just remember that it’s important to get back up

( People are counting are you believe it or not, to be the light that lights up their life)

Sometimes on your journey, you may get lonely, and question the idea of it all

Sometimes on your journey, people will come and go, just as quick as they said “hello”

But as they say Good Bye, more or just waiting to say hello

One day you’ll meet the one who’ll be your best friend, even under the hot summer Texas sun.

On this journey, you’ll see all sorts of things, and you’ll become all sorts of things yourself

All sorts of things along the way will push and pull, but just remember your never too full to sit down for dinner

Just remember on this journey to keep your soul than to sell it for water in the desert, rain will always come soon enough, like fate

And when you don’t have answer, surely, think, wonder, ask, search.. Ask and you shall recive.

And when walking in to a convenient store at night, no matter how cold keep your hands out of your pockets.

You have nothing to complain about, If you’re not going to look for a soultion

I am absouletly tired of it, people, especially teens, girls, bitch boys who complain about their problems

but yet are not willing to look deep down within themselves for solutions.

Yes, it is nice for someone to sit and listen to your problems, and listen to how us humans shoot ourselves in the foot. It is nice to

just vent, and it shows a bit of caring and compassion as well….. But it makes more sense, especially if that person really did care.. To suggest rational solutions, support etc to the situation. Especially, if this was a repeat issue, One can only logically conclude that soultions and input on the situation need to be put on the table.

But for some odd reason, people who do that get attacked. For some obvious reason pointing out the truth ends up getting me yelled at, isolated, pushed away, and all sorts of allegations made at me for not caring.

FOR THE LOVE OF GOD, I am sick and tired of seeing post on Tumblr from people bitching about how no one understands them? As if their some fucking prodigy, or crown royalty, as if they are some special creature… When really there just being miserable cunts, who like to

feel sorry for themselves as if they are 13 again.

The saddest part is our culture encourages the morons, to keep acting it out. Tumblr is a breeding ground for narcissism. And, yes I love myself w

ay too much. But I love myself in the proper way, not making some sad titty-party circus.

Again, stop bitching about being lonely, or how everything is dark, and how you’re so weird, quoting Zoey Deschanel movies like some old testament prophet * Psh, what a fat loose emotionally driven whore if you ask me. Your beautiful, your great, be you not what your emotions tell you to be.

If only half you knew, you were shooting yourselves in the foot, and that really you were being manipulated by yourself and others on a daily basis you might come to realize a few things, and live a better happier life.